Breakdown

I HATE MY ****ING LIFE!!!!!

Its been 3days last i hold a stick of... n my body going haywire, izzit becos of that or too expose to the moon rays.... i just can't stand it anymore!! i don't noe why... my brain wanna go "kebaboom!!!"..... the last weeks was a nightmare.. everytime i sleep i wake up in cold sweat.... tears.... i hate this feelings.....!!

Recalling the depredation

My dream is the denial

My life is hid with wrath

Blessing me with my fierce tears

Their bodies of black queen

White merchant of mine

Drawn with cruelty,in an everlasting night

Weakness,against the dying of my life

Everyday of my life,filled with resentment,i'm broke by the rain,as life rarely tret me well... thought i've met an angel,hoping for their lustre,Alas,they are megalo-maniac.... Seeing my reflection there's alway darkness...shining upon me...no light of wonders.... I'm so clueless,malignancy in me ...towards everyone... saying they against me...Here i'm pleasing to all... Not hatred but peace.For all the time that i fall......Calm my mind give me ease.... What i've done...never mean'tto be malevolent....Just seacrhing for some reassurrance...

Everyone now noe what my weakness is....they using it against me.... i'm on my knees... begging it to stop..... why can't they leave me alone.... they using my weakness to destroy me.... should i murder myself... just to end all this..... THIS GOT NOTHING got to WITH AZIZUN..... this is me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i noe ,i can't stand it animore.... {but why must you} Lost my dignity...someone please help me.....